Is probably the singularly most unsettling thing to ever exist on the internet
You are suffering from a feedback loop of disappointment caused by emotional isolation in tandem with a strong, perhaps overdeveloped, self-regard. Quick to anger or to perceive slight, you are simultaneously emotionally timid or reserved. Consequently deep emotional attachments are very hard for you to create, and your natural tendency to take offence from others will further strain relationships in their early stages.
You will often assume an attitude of superiority or disdain. This masks a strong sense of inferiority and a need to be loved or respected. The desire that you have for social respect has led you to behave as if you were completely self-reliant, despite the fact that you are terrified of failure. You will take any opportunity to prove your own importance, even to the point of self-destruction. Similarly, criticism can be met with extreme contempt. Displays of respect will help to break down this artificial barrier.
You hold resentments that your problems are greater than they need to be. However there is a feeling that you can overcome them with effort. Whether or not this is true, it will tend to leave you feeling less hopeless than others who do not feel a sense of impact upon the world around them. You take pride in being able to change course when problems evolve and there is a distinct sense of personal agency, which can help to address rising anxiety caused by lack of success.
Feelings of insecurity, both physical and mental, are creating stress and anxiety at this point in time. A desire to experience the fullness of life is being met with frustration. You are searching for both fulfillment and sympathetic friendship, and unfortunately finding neither. There is a desire for intimate connection to the outside world and a fear that this may be impossible.
This is fairly accurate and I had no idea what I was doing half the time.